Three is my favorite number and every time I have to do something more than once, I'll make sure to stop at three. That being said, I'm done chopping my hair off! Now the only time I will pick up a pair of scissors will be to trim my hair.
Took the weave out on May 27,09. So now it was time to finally get over my fear of change and "rock" my natural hair. It was all fun and games
until it ultimately hit me....there was no turning back! I couldn't re-sew my hair on! O_0
I'd never had hair shorter than this:
But when I'm motivated, there's no stopping me!
Following several pep talks, I decided to go outside and show off the new look.
Oh-eM-Gee! I don't think I've ever felt SO uncomfortable in my life! The stares were UNBEARABLE! It got to the point where I just kept waiting for someone to point and laugh.
After that horrible four hours, I decided that I could
NOT and would
NOT ever do it again! If I was going outside, I would wear either a hat, hood, scarf, or
SOMETHING. I didn't care if it was 100+ degrees outside, my hair wouldn't
EVER make another appearance!
Being a very shy person, I should have prepared myself for the inevitable but I didn't so all of the staring made me panic in a way I hadn't before.
But then something happened!
I was explaining the whole ordeal to my little sister, when my mom entered the room. She stood between us, turned to me, and said, "
I TOLD YOU! I told you that you looked
ugly and that
NO man would even look your way anymore!
YOU LOOK LIKE A BOY! Go get your hair braided,
STUPID!"
....
WOW....
What's that saying...something about the comfort of home?! As if I wasn't down in the dumps already?
Well long story short, my mom broke the little spirit I had left. My sister and a few friends tried to mend it but they could not succeed. I didn't leave the house for a week and when I had to go to church, I threw on a wig. It was hot and uncomfortable and I had to be in the sun for 5+ hours but I didn't care.
I mean what female in their right mind would want to step out looking like an ugly boy?